July 14 Update

Carrick had to go back lasix today. Lasix is a type of diuretic that pulls extra moisture off of his lungs somehow. The doctor said he's doing better now that he has been put back on the high-flow but it seems as though he just wants to stay where he is. Lasix should help so that hopefully by the end of the week, he can get back on track and start progressing again. Now that he is 36 weeks (corrected gestation), it's important for him to wean off air support. His feedings have been increased to 12ccs an hour because he needs more calories. He burns a lot from working so hard to breathe. Which reminds me; our little man weighs 4 lbs 13oz! Well, never mind though, because then he had a diaper that weighed 2 oz. There's not even any mention of beginning to bottle feed, right now. He has to be doing that for all his feedings before he can come home. Will and I are just so exhausted right now and a little depressed. I get tired of always messing with tubes and looking at tape on his face. I'm sick of worrying about oxygen saturations and reflux. I'm struggling with anger at all the new moms we see taking home their normal babies. And there is absolutely nothing we can do to bring him home sooner. We know that God is good and we see how much he has blessed us; we're just so weighed down right now with longing and waiting. Thanks for continuing to pray for us and for him. Soon, we will speak about this time like it was so long ago.